The struggle of being concentrated on myself and JOG
この記事に関しては、英語だけでいーやと思ったけどもやっぱり日本語訳を。
最近、運動不足解消と減量のために近所の公園付近をジョギングすることを始めてみた。
最近といっても、1週間前ぐらいのことでジョギング（と、ウォーキング）に実際にいったのは3日ぐらいの話・・・(;´･ω･)
昔から学校のフードコートに入るのが億劫だったり人が多い中じろじろと見られているんじゃないかとか他人と目が合うと自分の服装がおかしいのかとか、周りの視線を気にしがちな性格なのは前からわかっていたのだけど、外でジョギングをするときもこの「不安」が頭をどうしてもよぎってしまう。
もちろん、頭のどこかでは「誰も他人なんて気にしてない、気にしすぎなのは自分だけだ」ってわかってはいるんだけど割り切って自分のことばかりに集中するのはなんとも難しい！
人が少ない早朝にすればいいじゃない、って思うのだがなんせ夜行性なので朝に起きることがどうしても難しい。
実際、夜に何回か走りに行って確かに走りやすいんだけどあまり夜に暗い公園に行くのも危ないのかなぁ・・・と。
難しいところだ～
だけど今日はお昼から30分ぐらい走れたので大きなステップアップかと。
頑張れ自分！！！
こないだ水泳道具も買いそろえたので、お金を無駄にしないためにもスイミングにちょっくら明日ぐらいに挑戦しようと思います～。
（実は走るよりもスイミング派）
Hi There!
So recently I have started jogging around the nearby park.
By recenty, I mean abot a week ago. I have actually only DID jog (and walk) for about 3 days only.
I knew I tend to be too aware of my surrounding, like I used to feel anxious going in to canteen in high school because I thought every other students' eyes were on my when I entered. I still feel conscious about my clothes and appearance when I go out to busy town - especially when my eyes meet with someone. But jogging outside has been a struggle as well.
Back of my head I know that I am thinking too much and that no one is actually looking at me. Or my eyes meet with others because I am looking at them suspiciously.
I try to not care too much anymore, or try to be focused on what I am doing and what I need to do.
However, jogging in public came a slight challenge for me because of my anxiety(?).
I tried jogging at night time which helped, but I still feel a bit awkward jogging in daytime.
Problem with me is that I struggle waking up in morning because I'm such a night owl. I always end up waking up before noon and getting ready to exercise in noon. :(
Also, jogging at night time might not be too safe for a girl to do despite the park being quite close from my place.
But night time feels so much better though... it's quiet, less people, and it's much more cooler especially during summer like now.
Hmm....
BUT! I did go jogging for about 30 minutes at the park today in the afternoon.
I think I only ran not even a full circle but I guess it's a great step forward considering how I felt so intimated entering the park during day time.
The thing is, wearing a full gym gear makes me so uncomfortable because it's like I'm telling others that I'm going running and I'm so motivated to do that!!
Also, showing off your gym bra doesn't seem to be "popular" in here...which makes me so consicous about what I am wearing.
Maybe these might be solved if I wear something close to daiy wear such like a simple T shirt and a shorts+leggings...
With this anxiety, (I'm just calling it anxiety just to refer to my awkward penguin-ness. Not a medical term) I also feel embarrassed when wearing a pair of sunnies and/or a hat. I admire people wearing them so comfortably and proudly. But I just feel shy if I look weird and getting people's attention in weird way!
It's strange considering how I love to perform or give presentations in front of people.
I can't stang getting people's attention in daily situations.
I hope there are people like me too.
Tomorrow, I'm hoping to start swimming at one of the indoor gym nearby. I bought a set of swimming gear so I CANNOT WASTE MONEYYYYY.
I watched Woman in Black 2 yesterday as well so I'l have to write an article on it too.
BYE.
